I’m sure some of you are wondering just where in the world I’ve disappeared to. The short answer to that question is nowhere. I’m just been held hostage by the real world. The long, boring, and unhappy answer is that since the beginning of March I started showing signs of some then unknown illness. I was tired, had little energy, in constant pain, and to top it all off I was having a hard time keeping food down. After several trips to the urgent care and my own doctor I finally got some answers.

Instead of the flu I was hopping for, my doctor told me I had cancer cells in my Lymph nodes in my back. Way to freak a girl out, huh? She couldn’t pin-point the origin, but shipped me of the their hospital’s cancer center and they started to work on me. I now know that it’s a uterine cancer, that I may have had a while, as there are a few small spots where it looks like the cancer has spread. The current plan of action is to start me on Chemotherapy next Tuesday the 17th.

So…that is what’s going on with me, and a big portion of the reason I haven’t been online as much as I normally am. I’m focusing on staying positive and kicking it’s ass. I’ve got several great friends in the real world here at home who’d been adding me to prayer circles and what not. That’s about all I can ask from anyone at this point. Just pray and wish me the best. I’ll try to keep you all updated when I can.

Current Mood: Feelin’ fine.

Sunday Stealing: The 99′er Meme: Part 2

26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
It’d be nice to be a much ‘richer’ version of me, but yeah…I’m happy.

27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
Hate: Any unnecessary noise, mainly kids. Love: Good music with a kickin’ beat.

28) What’s your biggest “what if”?
*shrug* Not sure I have one. I’ll have to think on it.

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
I haven’t seen either one yet…so, I’m thinking that’s a no.

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
Nothing but air, I love my space.

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
Nothing specific, just air. No bad odors.

32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
Generally any place that is over crowded with stupid people or small children.

33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
Midwest! :P

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Hmm…Toby Kieth or Keith Urban….decisions, decisions.

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
Just live your life the way you want and make yourself happy. So long as you don’t cause harm to yourself or others…it’s all good.

36) Define: Art.
Art is different for everyone. What someone finds beautiful another person might find ho-hum.

37) Do you believe in luck?
Haven’t won the lottery…so that’s a no.

38) Patriots or Giants? Or, who gives a rat’s ass?
LOL. Who gives a rat’s ass!!!!

39) Will you watch the game? If yes, with who?
I’ll probably be forced to listen to it, but if I do watch it’s only for the commercials.

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
Yes, I drive. I’ve been crashed into, but have not crashed myself thank God.

41) What was the last book you read?
The Lovely Bones.

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
No.

43) Do you have any nicknames?
Smiley, BooBoo, and Shaw-na-na from co-workers. A few others that I won’t mention.

44) What was the last movie you saw?
I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 last night.

45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
My broken baby toe, last summer. Other wise I’ve been pretty fortunate.

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
Ages ago, yep.

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Plenty.

48) What’s your sexual orientation?
That’s really nobody’s business but my own.

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Probably, back in school. Kids are evil like that.

50) Do you believe in magic?
I wish…it’s be fun.

Current Mood: LOL

Sunday Stealing: The 99′er Meme: Part 1

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
a) Black of White – Michael Jackson
b) Ghostbusters – Ray Parker Jr.
c) You Got It – Roy Orbison
d) Faith – George Michael
e) Venus – Bananarama
f) Don’t Go Breakin’ My Heart – Elton John & Kiki Dee

LOL. It’s not called my variety list for nothing, you know. ^_^

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Johnny Depp, first and for most. However, if he’s busy I’ll take Vin Diesel.

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
Feeling Calm (15) (Variable) It turns out it was just anxiety getting the best of your Sim. The object wasn’t left turned on and impending disaster was not looming. But, double checking helps to calm the anxiety. (Sims 3: Ambitions Game Guide)

4) What do you think about most?
All kinds of things.

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
It was the Weather Bug letting me know the daily weather. It’s supposed to be a whopping 20 degrees today. -_-

6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
With them, you perv!!

7) What’s your strangest talent?
None that I know of.

8) Women…. (finish the sentence); Men…. (finish the sentence)
Women rule; Men are dogs. ^_^ (Sorry boys…but that’s just how it is.)

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
Nope.

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
What am I a 12 year old boy? I think not!

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
I wouldn’t call it strange…but I fear stupid people.

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Maybe when I was like 1 or 2 years old.

13) What’s your religion?
None of your damn business. It’s between me and God.

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Driving to work. -_-

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Behind it, when the damn thing is working.

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
Within Temptation. However, keep in mind that there are many, many others that I also consider favorites. This is just the current favorite.

17) What was the last lie you told?
And just why would I tell you?

18) Do you believe in karma?
Yep.

19) What does your URL mean?
It’s an old nickname I went by online. Z(ero)Angel, though I suppose it’s not entirely accurate. I’m about 1% Angel, 99% Devil. ^_^

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
Stupidity in others; That I haven’t choked one of them yet. ^_^

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
We’ve been over this a billion times….JOHNNY DEPP!

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Once upon a time…at an all girls summer camp.

23) How do you vent your anger?
Yell, swear, and kill things in video games.

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
CDs, DVDs, Video Games.

25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
*shrug* Phone I guess.

Current Mood: Feelin’ fine.

Sunday Stealing: The Never Ending Meme, Ends

36. Have you watched American Horror Story?
I live it (almost) everyday…it’s called work.

37. Baseball hat or toque?
Say what?

38. Do you shampoo or soap up first in the shower?
‘Cause this really matters…right?

39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste?
Ah…another pointless question.

40. Pen or pencil?
Pen.

41. Have you ever gambled at a casino?
Yep, and lost. Now I don’t play there no more.

42. Have you thrown up on a plane?
Nope.

43. Have you thrown up in a car?
Hmm…possibly.

44. Have you thrown up at work?
Don’t think so, I did at school once though. Normally if I feel that sick I call out.

45. Do you scream on roller coasters?
I don’t ride them in the first place.

46. How many shoes do you have?
Three pairs. I’m not one of THOSE women.

47. Who was your first roommate?
One of my high school friends.

48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time?
Rum. Which would explain why I don’t drink it no more.

49. What was your first job?
Family Babysitter.

50. What was your first car?
’85 Chevy S-10 affectionately referred to as the ‘Death Trap’ or ‘Swiss Cheese-Mobile’.

51. When did you go to your first funeral?
It was either my Great Grandmother or my Uncles. I think they were both the same year but not sure, I was maybe 10 or so.

52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?
I have no idea. Four…maybe five. *shrug*

53. Who was your first grade teacher?
Mrs. Marquette

54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride?
Washington D.C.

55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
Never did. I didn’t test the evil overlord…er, my father.

56. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
Eric, a boy who lived across the street from my Grandma. We lost contact when I moved. His parents still live there though so maybe I’ll see him again someday.

57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parents’ house?
I moved for college, and moved right back. I don’t like being out there on my own.

58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
Mommy.

59. Whose wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen?
I haven’t been asked, nor would I want to be. Weddings are not my thing.

60. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
Swear at my alarm clock.

61. What was the first concert you attended?
Kenny Rodgers.

62. First tattoo or piercing?
My ears were originally pierced when I was 12 or 13.

63. First celebrity crush?
JOHNNY DEPP!!!!!!!

Current Mood: LOL

Sunday Stealing: The Never Ending Meme, Part Two

21. Did you go to your high school prom?
Hell no! Despite all my friends trying to get me to go. I do not dance in public thank you very much!

22. Perfect time to wake up?
Whenever I feel like it, specifically without the aid of an alarm clock.

23. Perfect time to go to bed?
Whenever I feel tired, but rarely before 11pm. Unless I’m working early the following day.

24. Do you use your queen right away in chess?
I don’t play chess, I don’t understand it.

25. Ever been in a car accident?
Two minor ones, neither were my fault. The first one a deer ran into my driver side door, and the other I was rear-ended just after a stop light because the moron behind wasn’t paying attention. Both were on the same road…so guess where I don’t drive anymore. ^_^

26. Closer to mom or dad…or neither?
My mommy of course, I live with her after all.

27. What age is this exciting life over for you?
What exciting life? It’s been pretty ho-hum right from the start.

28. What decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager?
I was pretty happy with being a teen in the 90′s. Well, as happy as one can be when being the ‘outcast’. *shrug*

29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned?
Either my Mules or my Birkenstocks.

30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school?
I think so, an old sweatshirt that I wear when I’m super cold.

31. Were you in track and field?
LOL. Me? You must be joking!!

32. Were you ever in a school talent show?
Yep, in the 2nd grade. I was next up, stage fright kicked in and I chickened out. I have not been able to comfortably speak or do anything in front of a crowd since.

33. Have you ever written in a library book?
No, but I’ve doggy-eared one.

34. Allergic to?
Stupid people, small children, dust, mold, pain, and did I mention stupid people?

35. Favorite fruit?
Strawberries!

Current Mood: Feelin’ fine.